2021 resistance

I feel helpless a lot. I feel defeated often. The pandemic is still raging on with the new Delta variant. Fox is gaslighting it’s viewers and telling bold face lies. That is nothing new actually, but they are more brazen in what they lie about! (hint: the election being stolen) Donald J Trump is holding rallies to continue to build on his fascist movement. Talking heads in powerful positions are following him blindly (probably blackmailed by Russia kompromat *looking at Mitch, Lindsey, and Kevin*). Our planet is in peril with the climate crisis. Voting rights are being attacked again. There is so much to discuss, but this post is going to focus on the threat of fascism in our country right now. Please read, get involved, and help save America!

A lot has happened since my post on 2020 resistance. I was correct in being alarmed & having the foresight that Donald Trump was not going to leave office in the usual manner we have witnessed for generations over the history of our country. There has ALWAYS been a smooth, peaceful transfer of power…

until January 6th, 2021…

Until Donald J Trump that is. He railed on about how the election was stolen to his zombie followers, and they believed him. They believed him even after several states investigated and did audits to prove that the election of 2020 was the most secure election we have ever had. That happened because people turned out like NEVER before! It wasn’t close enough to fudge the numbers this time, and he was so upset about that. He’s a narcissist so that shouldn’t surprise anyone. He is a demagogue so his refusing to concede shouldn’t have surprised anyone. We have witnessed throughout history what these figure heads do in order to maintain power, or to take power.

The insurrection that happened on January 6th should not have surprised anyone either, but majority of the nation seemed stunned that the insurrection happened at the capital. He stood at a podium behind a bullet proof shield and told his followers to march down to Congress, and for them to stop the steal. Mo Brooks stood there shouting about the day was the day that they were taking names and kicking ass. All the while he wore bullet proof jacket underneath his clothing. People were stunned that these things happened, but they shouldn’t have been! Donald Trump told us in 2016 he was a nationalist. He told us who he was every damn time he urged his followers to use violence against black people like we did in the good ole days he would say. He told us who he was when he made fun of a disabled reporter, when he urged men to belittle women, when he declared that news media that was critical of him were the enemy of the people, he spent so much time showing us and telling us who he really is, yet here we are, people still want to play out this shock and awe reactionary process. We don’t have time for that folks.

We do not have time to be shocked and analyze the mental faculties of Donald J Trump, his family or his supporters. He will be the nominee in 2024. He has a real chance of winning by any means necessary. Kevin McCarthy is helping him build a larger base with his own subtle ways of expressing misogyny, his subtle way of expressing his conspiracy support for the big lie (the election being stolen), and he isn’t the only one doing these things to help ensure Donald J Trump will, in fact; be the next GOP nominee in 2024. The days of traditional conservative values that were less fascist no longer exist folks. We do not have time to sit and try to convince you the parallels between Donald J Trump and Adolf Hitler; or the parallels between the GOP and fascism. We need you to read, and learn where you can, and listen! We need to focus our support on the news media outlets who are actually calling this out by name for what it really is because truth is the most important thing in the fight against fascism. It is important to share knowledge about fascism and educate the populace, so everyone is aware what is actually happening. Every person needs called out by name, and immediately put in the spotlight for their corruption, their lies, their tendency towards violence, and their gaslighting! It has to be called out every single time! Nothing these fascists do should surprise anyone if people know the history of how Adolf Hitler rose to power.

If we know how Adolf Hitler used Germany’s system against itself to gain absolute power over the people then we should be seriously evaluating and fixing our own system to prevent anyone from achieving that goal. We know Donald J Trump will use the system to gain control because he already tried to do so when he told the DOJ to just say the election was rigged, and he tried to use his Vice President Mike Pence to nullify the election. These are not unprecedented events in our country, though people seem to think they are. We had eleven states secede from the United States in 1860 after Lincoln was chosen for the presidency. What Donald J Trump and the GOP are doing right now is not unprecedented, so try and stop being shocked because we need all hands on deck here. Accept reality that this is happening, we were warned from history lessons, and the reality of what was to come was spoken from the horse’s mouth Donald J Trump when he said, “I’m a nationalist!” in 2016.

Things we need to evaluate and bring immediate change too while Joe Biden has the power of the senate is the electoral college. We need to seriously think about how easy it is for them to be corrupted and cast votes for a candidate that the population did not choose (popular vote should win & G. W. Bush is example of a corrupt electoral college). This also reminds us that the Supreme Court needs expanded (G.W. Bush appointed to presidency by SCOTUS ruling) to ensure justice is upheld. A stacked court is not a just court. Another focus is the media! We need to support media telling the truth, and we need to strip the media outlets who are gaslighting viewers while spreading dangerous propaganda in their place on cable. There should be more than 6 media companies controlling our information!Information is power! We need to join forces with those we may not have been too keen on joining pre Trump like The Lincoln Project or MeidasTouch. We need to urge those with name recognition, ability to raise funds for ads, etc. We need to support journalists like Jake Tapper, Anderson Cooper, Stephanie Ruhle, Rachel Maddow, Nicole Wallace, Katie Tur, etc. We need to lambaste every anchor on Fox like Sean Hannity, Tucker Carlson, etc. for being liars, and fascist.

We can’t continue to be afraid to use this term fascist because not using it confuses the public about what is really happening. It allows people to be manipulated when the phrases “they’re being hyperbolic,”and “this is nonsense,” are being used. This works because many people do not know what fascism is! It is just a catch phrase thrown around for most people. Most people have no idea what fascism is or how it differs from socialism, communism, etc. This is where people like Jake Tapper, etc. needs to use their voices to educate people on what fascism is and point out that the GOP is; in fact, using fascist tactics to gain power in our country right now. Yes, you will have to wear two hats now. A journalist hat and a teacher’s hat. I know it isn’t fair, but you’re the guardians of democracy; with that comes great responsibility and unfair expectations at times. Suck it up and get your two hats on because you’re patriots. You’re real patriots.

When you educate the population about what fascism is and lay out what the GOP are doing, it clearly shows that this is not hyperbole, or paranoia on the resistance (ANTIFA) side. These are some things that Germany lacked when they began their resistance fight trying to stop Adolf Hitler from gaining power. They appeased him because they thought they could control him. They didn’t have social media to help combat the false narratives used by the Nazis. They didn’t have televised anchors to brutally point out the facts and point out the fascist tactics that were used. They didn’t have history to compare what they were facing to help them decipher how dangerous these appeasements were for them. They didn’t have mass media groups to help spread information like MeidasTouch or Lincoln Project. WE DO!! We must utilize every tool available to us to help shine a light on what Donald J Trump, Kevin McCarthy, Ted Cruz, and all the other figure heads of this fascist movement are doing to attain control. We need to fix parts of our system that are supposed to provide us with checks and balances that have failed us previously. Electoral college (abolish it), the Supreme Court (expand it), news media (strip labels from news sources who are actually entertainment like Fox Entertainment), call out fascists by name, and shine a light on the tactics they’re using (Kevin McCarthy using misogyny and wanting to normalize beating women) compare these tactics with specific tactics used in Nazi Germany so people can understand what the fuck is happening. I wish I was as eloquent as Steve Schmidt, but here we are. I am doing my part to attempt to stir a passion in you about the importance of what is happening, so that maybe you can join the fight happening right now in this country. This is what I can do right now to help resistance. I can write, perhaps not as well as many, but I can share information. I can donate to groups like Lincoln Project and MeidasTouch because they need money to get ads televised. There is so much we can all do that will make a difference! This isn’t a training exercise America. This is a real fight against fascism happening in real time! Please suit up and join the ranks of resistance. We need you!

Fucked up sober…fucked up high…

Today was a struggle for me in more ways than one. Winter is here and it kills my body! My brain ALWAYS goes into the thought of how I feel on narcotics, but it only focuses on the good parts of narcotic use, like pain relief, bringing me the ability to do what normal people do with no nerve pin, bone pain, and the satisfaction that I can do things without struggle. My brain also wants to focus on the emotional high I get when I take them. The beautiful feeling of truly not caring where I fit in because the pills give me the ability to fit in anywhere when I take them. I have to remind my brain that the pills also create a crash in depression when they wear off. I have to remind my brain about the pills creating a dope sickness in me that is hell on earth. I have to remind my brain that I always end up taking so many I’m nodding off or passing out in my kitchen. My daughter deserves better and so do I. This will be a lifetime of struggle for me. I wish every single day that I would have never smoked heroin, or opium, and I wish I would have never taken OxyContin. It isn’t easy living with a monkey on your back every single fucking day. It is exhausting, it is so fucking exhausting.

I’m exhausted from chronic pain, my job makes me exhausted, and fighting my addiction daily makes life even more exhausting. Only the troubled understand what I struggle with. The untroubled are exhausting too. They throw around advice when they know nothing about my struggle, or my history that brought these struggles on, and who wants to explain their trauma to every person they interact with? I don’t have the energy to do that. Also, I am not a fan of handing out my bullets to people who may shoot them back at me when I don’t meet the expectations they place on me unfairly. Majority of people in my life know just a few layers of who I truly am, and though that can seem lonely…I like it that way. Enters the other problem I struggle with, healthy attachment! I don’t let people know me fully because basically I don’t want to be hurt anymore. I’ve had enough hurt that it will last a lifetime. I can’t take anymore hurt. If I keep people at arms length I’m safer. I like feeling safe. Isolating myself isn’t healthy though. It is another struggle for me. When narcotics collide with a damaged soul it starts out like a marriage made in heaven, but ends up being the most toxic relationship you could ever have. In the beginning pills make you open, social, euphoric, and artificially numb in the honeymoon stage. They make you feel safe, but it’s all an illusion. When they wear off you are right back where you started….lost, guarded, isolated, and trying to find a way to end yet another toxic cycle because you’re fucked up sober, and you’re still fucked up high. I need to practice acceptance of who I am…a struggling addict with lots of past trauma….and that is OK as long as I keep moving forward in self growth.

A soul’s purpose

Things get so heavy in life that you are forced sometimes to take a moment and pause.

Take time to admire the sounds of running water, or a bird’s song echoing through a forest. It is nature that nurtures the soul. The universe provides these wonders for us to experience, so that we can remember where we came from. To remember what we are; we are an intricate part of a whole universe.

Each one of us has magic we possess. That magic can ripple through human kind broadening horizons, connecting soul tribes, helping us all to remember that we are not alone in this vast world, even though it may feel that way at times.

The magic in a smile could save a life passing through your very own journey, and you would know no different because pain often hides behind a mask that the person wears. Holding a door open could help someone survive a day of pain and you would know no different because the pain is often hidden behind a smile.

We are all pebbles being tossed into a large pool of water making ripples that extend beyond our basic human touch. It is important to pause once in a while and think about the impact we have on all those around us, and the impact we are making in the universe with our deeds. We all have the magic in us to change the world around us. How will you use your magic in this universe to bring about a change that is much needed amongst mankind?

We all should put the work in. We should be evolving into something greater than what we are in this present moment. Growth never ends. It is the beginning and a continuation of our souls that are constantly searching for our purpose here on earth. Not only is our purpose to leave tangible evidence of growth and evolution amongst us, but to also allow the essence of our souls to touch and reach other souls. We will all transcend from earth to an unknown place where the universe is waiting for us to reunite in spiritual form, so that we can help usher in new generations within mankind to prepare them to do better than what we may have done previously in our own human form.

We are made from the elements within this universe and we will return to that when our missions are complete here on earth. Let’s help make our missions here on earth be about creating and maintaining love, peace, grace, support, and unity.

Take a pause to set aside anger, greed, lust, envy, hatred, fear, sorrow, and war. We have much work to do. It is up to many of us to make sure the next generation can evolve into an even better existence. Now, go share your magic with the world.

2020 Resistance

It’s been a surreal year thus far. A pandemic covered the world, and we all went into isolation. America faces dire times because of Donald Trump, the supreme court balance, and fascists claiming to be the Grand Ole Party. Police officers have murdered countless minorities and Black Lives Matter has been marching for months. They have been murdering them since the end of slavery, but once again a movement had to be born to stand up against the tyranny and injustices. It’s been a rough time for so many because jobs are not available. The jobs available are limited hours. The schools opened without a clear, safe plan to not spread covid19. We have people refusing to wear masks because Donald Trump called the pandemic a democratic hoax. We have white supremacist groups killing protesters more often. California is on fire, along with Oregon, but the fascists don’t understand or believe in science. They refuse to help the intelligent people make the world a better place. The lines that exist for people needing food in our country is not only sad, but disheartening because the fascist Republicans in power right now have not offered anything but bread crumbs. I’m terrified about Trump stealing election in November, and if he doesn’t do that, I’m terrified he will not allow a peaceful transition of power. The guy is facing indictments, so it is hard to say what he will do to hold onto power. I have tried to leave politics off of this particular page of mine, but things are so fucked up and it weighs so heavy on me that I had to finally post something. I wonder if Americans really understand what is going on here because the media is frightened to call what’s happening what it really is. What is it? It is a fascist takeover! Things are happening in real time, and it is all very frightening. Donald Trump brags about cops shooting reporters with tear gas, rubber bullets and beating them. 42% of our country doesn’t seem to give a fuck about free press. Donald Trump has complimented dictatorships, but has shunned and insulted democracies around the world. Donald Trump was impeached, but he still seems to have the right to appoint a justice to the SCOTUS. When the election is only 43 days away he should not have that right. The Republicans refused Merrick Garland’s appointment by Barack Obama and refused to vote because it was over 100 days from the 2016 election. They claimed the elected president in the new term should make the appointment, so the American people could decide a lifetime appointment to the court.

Now they seem to think it is fine to allow Donald Trump to make an appointment to be voted on when the election has already begun with early voting, and in 43 days everyone votes. It is insane that they are doing this. I mean, I’m not surprised because they’re attempting to have a complete fascist takeover. The Supreme Court getting stacked in favor of the criminal will add further protection to Donald Trump from his crimes and any indictments handed down.

America is turning into a full blown fascist state and 42% of our population seem to be cheering that on. It has given me clarity about how Germany must have been during the rise of Adolf Hitler. The freedom fighters, and anti fascist in Germany during that time must have felt the same way I’m feeling now. I have never been this anxious to vote, or excited to cast my vote. I hope Americans finally understand their civic duty to participate in elections from here on out.

There are many groups that have formed, like The Lincoln Project, and they are on a mission with the resistance to remove Donald Trump and any Republican who has given Donald Trump the freedom to continue to destroy our system, and erode our democracy. I never thought a bleeding heart liberal like myself would be joining the likes of Tom Nichols, Joe Walsh, or Bill Kristol to save the country from a serious threat from the Whitehouse. I use to think about this very scenario under G.W. Bush’s reign, it was fleeting and sporadically rested in my thoughts, but Donald Trump’s term so far has weighed on me every single fucking day, and it has me frightened and looking for a way out if things go even more south than they already are. It is surreal to feel the way I do.

Every day since he took office I have checked Twitter and the media to see if he’s died! That is crazy and out of character for me. I loathe him like no other. I cry every night over the peril my country is facing. This craziness continues even during the raging pandemic…we are so fucked up in America. I keep reading people posting and asking when did we end up here, where did it begin, where did we go wrong? I have understood for quite some time now that the Nazi’s never really went away. The Nazi’s fled Germany and they infiltrated our country, and other countries for decades. They have been infiltrating our police forces, our electoral College, our military, our justice system, and our congress. Most have done so quietly. As they have been successful for decades they were able to put Donald Trump in the Whitehouse. Here we are in.2020 fighting for the soul of our nation. The world, our allies, watch in angst.

The resistance is the hope. Stay tuned America and keep watching world. We may need you in the near future.

Season of Change

The season is changing
Colors burst from the trees
Things are not the same
I’ve been arranging and rearranging
I’m close to forgetting your name

I was stuck in a valley
Then the path was made clear
The fear no longer cripples me
With my silhouette I dance free

A new season is on the horizon
The wind swirls the change
No, things will never be the same
But I’m finally free…
I’m finally free.