My Life In Puzzle Pieces
I was working in a dead end corporate job. I was becoming frustrated by the things that were happening in the world when I met Ed. It was a few years after September 11, 2001. I had this strong urge to congregate with like minded people that I couldn’t seem to find in my local area. This brought me to the yahoo chat rooms. Political chat was where I ended up. I was at another point in my life where I was changing on a very deep level. I was starting to question George W. Bush and his intentions on Iraq war. I was researching his family history. I became obsessed with information in the political realm. I realized during this time I had to get involved, be involved and get others involved if I had hoped to change any of it. I voted for the first time when Gore ran against Bush. Ed was a refreshing voice then and now. He knew what I was feeling, what I was searching for, and what I wanted to fight for. He became one of my best friends in that chat room setting.
Ed became such a good friend that we teamed up via internet and created blogs entries we wrote together. We wrote about the RFID chips tracking. We wrote about Blackwater and private armies. We done stories on the legitimate questions surrounding September 11, 2001. We were an awesome team.
It was 2005 and the year I had become disabled. I had back surgery and diagnosed with my tumor and tarlov cyst. It was devastating for me. I went from a hard working, social butterfly to a woman stuck inside with no outlets. I couldn’t walk, drive, or work. During this period in my life I spent more and more time in the chat rooms. Ed was one of the few who showed me compassion and support after being disabled. We spent many hours discussing the woes of the world, the political system, and spent hours trying to come up with solutions to these things.
I only kept three friends from those political chat rooms in my personal day to day life. He is one of them. He knows the real me and has for quite a while now. I trusted him enough to allow him to know more then my chat room persona.
I am thankful for Ed and his friendship. I think that he played a part in me keeping my sanity when I became disabled in 2005. Thank you Ed for your wonderful friendship. I will be forever grateful for you.
I had received an E-mail earlier that got me to think. The message was about how you hesitate or don’t send a religious message through E-mail because of what others might think of you.
It seems to be easier to send an E-mail message about the terrors of the world, or to send some sex story about some Hollywood movie star, send a joke, but when it comes to a religious message, it seems to be less likely to be sent through the E-mail for fear of what others might think of you for sending it, or for fear you don’t know what religious belief they have themselves, if any.
I have to sadly admit it is harder for me to forward a message that has to do with God than any other message I forward. I do worry about whether the people I send it to have a belief in God. I am not worried about what people think of me so that is not it at all. I just don’t want to push my love of God onto others who might not believe it. I don’t think it right to push any religion on anyone. We are free to choose what to believe in and all will answer for that belief in the end.
Does it mean I am ashamed in some way of my love for God? I wonder. Do you have the same problem? Do you receive Christian E-mails for hesitate to send them for the reasons I’ve listed? Maybe a small part of me is ashamed of loving God.
The world makes it easier to worry about Brittany Spears, then to pray proudly. The world makes it easier to live a sinful life then to attend Church every Sunday. The world makes it easier just to accept the murder and mayhem within other countries then to tell people you love them and God. Everything has to be politically correct…
The E-mail message stated something that stuck to me the most. It mentioned how easy it is for people to believe what newspapers print but how hard it is for people to believe what the bible says.
I just thought this was an interesting topic that I could bring to the blog community. I am anxious to read your comments and replies about this subject matter.
Until then, God bless you and your families…