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Out Of My Heart, Out Of My Head, Out Of My Dreams

Numb in my soul
Yearning for happiness
That I can’t seem to feel
This void
Can’t seem to be filled
Was it all the death?
Was it all abuse?
That numbed my core?
It has made me sadness’ whore
Why is it so easy to feel sorrow?
It takes such resolve
To see joy in the morrow
I need you gone…
Out of my heart, out of my head…
Out of my dreams…

Am I sick in the head?
Have I died inside?
With all the dead
So much easier, the dread
I see you in my dreams
Haunting me in my sleep
Hell I keep
I need you to go away…
Out of my heart, out of my head…
Out of my dreams…
No one hears my screams
In the dark cold night
As I walk through dreams
You’re everywhere in sight
You can’t love me to death

I’ve always known
You’ve wanted my soul
I know you wait in shadows
I feel your chill in the air
I hear you whisper my name
Pushing me towards insane
Thoughts you put in my mind
Guilt you lay on my heart
A game I want no part
Yet you linger here
So near…

“Rachel” you whisper
Hoping I’ll approach your arms
Hoping I’ll falter and fall
You want all my sin
In exchange for my soul
You’ve never let go
How long must I pray?
For you to be gone…
Out of my heart, out of my head…
Out of my dreams…
I’ll accept the scars
If you will just go…from me