Denial


I tried to love you living
Now I’m left loving you dying
In my heart there is heaviness
That I might not have said
The things that rest on my mind
Never knowing if I loved you
The way you deserved to be
From earth’s chains, you’re free

I knew you would not last forever
Yet denial was my friend
It helped me keep you distant
When I wanted you so close

I took for granted
The time I thought we had
Some things I didn’t say
I thought you already knew
Now my heart is heavy
Tears are due
You’re gone now and things weren’t said
You left your body, occupy heaven instead

I knew you would not last forever
Yet denial was my friend
It helped me keep you distant
When I wanted you so close

I thought denial of you dying
Would give me some relief
Would shelter me from the grieving
What a fool I’ve been…
Now things are left unsaid
Things you’ll never know
As seasons grow
You had to go…

I knew you would not last forever
Yet denial was my friend
It helped me keep you distant
Even when I wanted you so close…

About JustOrdinary

Hello my name is Rachel…around here I’m best known as Just Ordinary. I created this blog page to share pieces of my life with you, the reader, also to share my projects, and writings. This blog page I have created is a collection of realty and fiction. Not everything I write pertains to me or my life.

Posted on Saturday, January 1, 2011, in Death, Poetry, prose, thoughts and tagged , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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