Daily Archives: Sunday, July 1, 2007

I Am Broken

I am broken
In a million pieces
From the things you’ve done
I have no where to run
I am broken

Thoughts of you and what you did
Clutter my mind
A war is going on inside my head
I just wish the memories were dead

I want one day of peace
I want to remember what comfort felt like

You are still in there
And the dreams feel real
It gets so hard to deal
How can I make it go away?
So an authentic smile can return for me
So I can close my eyes and not see you

I am broken
In a million pieces
From the wrong you’ve done
I have no where to run
I am broken

The monster in you
Created a monster in me
The childhood memories will not let me free
How could you have done that to me?
You couldn’t see the damaged girl you’d leave?

I hate you for lost days we can’t relive
I have so much pain from you
Sometimes it seems like the only thing
I have to give
The events are hard to consume
Nothing there but gloom

My innocence was stolen
And there is no way to get it back
Secure is something I have forgotten how to feel
In my head a never ending movie reel

Hope is hard to hold on to
And I always feel alone
The things you’ve done to me
I close my eyes and you are all I see

I am broken
In a million pieces
From the wrong you’ve done
I have no where to run
I am broken

I try to block you out
And sometimes I succeed
But I never experience the peace
I want and need

I have tried things to numb myself
But nothing fucking works
You left me with open wounds
That will never heal

I tried those pills
And I dabbled in the drink
I still felt on the brink
Memories of you kill

I feel scared all the time
That one day I’ll never return
From the war you left in my mind
Without you
I probably would have shined

I am broken
In a million pieces
From the things you’ve done
I have no where to run
I am broken

Gotta organize and change this page!

I have been meaning to break down this page. Organize it better (an obsession I have). It just isn’t suitable to me…I have to have it organized. I plan on doing that, starting today! Well in between the baby being awake of course.

When you visit here again I hope it is much more suitable. Some of the things I have included on this page will be moving to a separate one that will be linked here.

My goals for this page checklist:

This page was meant to be a journal…
I want it to contain my writings mainly
Separate my political stuff from the rest of my stuff.
Remove the medical postings to another place.
The categories have to be better organized…and not so damn many of them Rachel!!!!
Perhaps try out a different layout, see how others could fit.

The Blogroll- it is up to date and those who don’t post regularly have been removed

I guess I better start now…