I’ll Hate the World Today

I drag myself out of bed
Still feeling numb in my head
Time has passed and much hasn’t changed
The world surrounds me and it’s strange
I want to crawl into a shell
Hide myself away from the hell
The bombs that tick inside my soul
The memories I just can’t seem to let go
I’ll hate the world today
It makes living easier for me
All the mistakes of you in me
I just want to be free

Sometimes I want to die
While thoughts of you linger
Sometimes all I can do is cry
Even though I don’t want to remember

A monster has created a demon
Still without reason
I’ll never be the way I once was
Inside my head you crawl
Leaving flames, consumed with fire
Smothering all of my desire
To smile, to laugh, to live
I want to hide myself away
Before my bombs detonate
I’ll hate the world today
All the mistakes of you in me
I want to be free

About JustOrdinary

Hello my name is Rachel…around here I’m best known as Just Ordinary. I created this blog page to share pieces of my life with you, the reader, also to share my projects, and writings. This blog page I have created is a collection of realty and fiction. Not everything I write pertains to me or my life.

Posted on Thursday, January 25, 2007, in Journal Pages, Poetry, Suicide. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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