One Day You’ll Be Dead (Language warning!)

If you could see me now dear.
The scars I carry, I’m living in fear.
Thinking about who I was, and who I became.
Every touch, I am filled with shame.
Fuck me! Go ahead, it is what you want.

One day you’ll be dead,
all this hate inside my head.

What a regret you were in my life!
For me to stay so long, be your wife!
Look at my face, the empty stare!
The beast you made from beauty so rare!
Touch my used body, it is what you’ve always taken!
A simple few moments, my sanity shaken!
I could stab you a million times,
Do you hear my hate filled rhymes?
Read these words as your last.
Remember the nights, all the pain you’d cast?

One day you’ll be dead,
can you read all this hate inside my head?

Why must you not have any pain?
With all that I carry, mostly the shame.
Your life is so pulled together,
Mine blows through the wind, tender as a feather.

I fight to keep my mind at ease.
Forget your words, the ones that me feel like a sleeze.
“I need you, I want you. You’re my wife, do what you should.”
Screaming inside, I hate you! If only I could,

Snap your neck, stop your sexual game.
Then laugh in your face, you’d finally understand my pain
You make me insane! You bastard!
You were only full of lies, and torment.
Listen to my cries, the contempt.
Just thoughts of you devestate my mental frame.
I want to cast you to hell, let you finally taste this flame!

One day you’ll be dead,
I hope you can hear all this hate inside my head.
Not another woman will be able to lay in your bed

(Published 1998)

About JustOrdinary

Hello my name is Rachel…around here I’m best known as Just Ordinary. I created this blog page to share pieces of my life with you, the reader, also to share my projects, and writings. This blog page I have created is a collection of realty and fiction. Not everything I write pertains to me or my life.

Posted on Saturday, December 16, 2006, in Journal Pages, Poetry. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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