Posted on Thursday, June 26, 2008 by justordinary
I secretly have been taking more lyrica then I should be taking through the day the past few days. I am supposed to be taking two capsules twice daily. I have an older prescription of 75mg and I’ve been taking two of them on top of my normal dose on some days.
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Posted on Sunday, June 15, 2008 by justordinary
Am I afraid to die tonight? Strangely, no I am not.
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Posted on Sunday, June 1, 2008 by justordinary
IF I should die on the table for some odd reason I want things to be clear so my family will have it a little easier, I HOPE TO GOD THAT DOESN’T HAPPEN TOMORROW! In case though this needs to be posted. You never know when something can go wrong.
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Posted on Saturday, May 17, 2008 by justordinary
I get so lonely. I am lonely now. The loneliness is heavy on my heart. It makes me miss home even though home isn’t home since dad died. I fantasize about what home would be like if I rushed back there but when reality returns I see that it isn’t what I see in my fantasy. Home hasn’t been home for twelve years. My family has been broken since March 7, 1996 and there is no fixing it. Mom isn’t really mom even though I fantasize about that too.
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Posted on Saturday, May 10, 2008 by justordinary
Perhaps the nightmares represent the fact I feel like I am getting suffocated in my real life with these medical problems again. I thought that was all over for me but here I am once again having to get tests done to find out what is going on. I am so scared it will be some sort of cancer. That is one of my greatest fears. Cancer.
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