Abusive relationships and possible drug abuse….

Since my gall bladder surgery things have gotten so much better for me. I’ve been so busy planting seeds and perennials outside since my recovery. I love flowers and I love gardening! I am so happy I’m able to do some little by little.

My back prevents me from doing it all at once but I can do little at a time and it is all coming together in my yard now. I have my rose bushes going strong. I put out some hollyhocks and they are thriving too. I planted two shrubs, flowering almond, and I can’t spell the other shrubs name properly LOL so I just won’t even try. I also planted a magnolia tree too. I put three lilacs out too on my side border. So as you can see I’ve been busy in my yard and not in here blogging.

Tonight though I have something I do want to write about.

Men who have the tendency to call their women names and the women stick with the man who does this. Why??

I can’t understand how a woman can stay with a man that verbally abuses her for any reason. Do any of you have an answer? Obviously the woman has low self -esteem. It is sad to see that happen.

I have this friend that I just met. She is a great gal. She has a daughter the same age as my oldest. They play wonderfully together. The guy she is with is a friend of my husbands. He is a good guy until he starts drinking. They were over the other night and they were all drinking. (I don’t drink at all due to my medication) So he gets drunk and they get into this small spat but it turns into him calling her a stupid bitch, dumb cunt, and so forth.

She stays with him. A little while later thing were OK between them again. She acted as if nothing even happened. As a woman I think she would have to hold resentment about that type of treatment, I mean I certainly would! I don’t understand either why he feels the need to go to that extreme.

When he is sober he treats her like gold. He is a great guy during his sober time.

I’m not sure if I should say anything to them or not. I just met her and we just became friends. What would you do? Would you mention it? Would you say something to the jackass guy who is your husband’s friend?

I did mention it being fucked up that night but he was drunk so it probably didn’t even stick into his mind if you know what I mean. I don’t know. I know I am thankful my man doesn’t do shit like that even when he is upset at me. It is just so low and scum like to do that shit. I just don’t get it.

Anyway, there is something else I want to write about tonight. I have something on my mind. This next subject has to do with me and it is something I probably shouldn’t put out here but fuck it. I am real. There is nothing wrong with being real, right?

I secretly have been taking more lyrica then I should be taking through the day the past few days. I am supposed to be taking two capsules twice daily. I have an older prescription of 75mg and I’ve been taking two of them on top of my normal dose on some days.

The reason I have been taking them is the dose I am on now just doesn’t last long enough for me through the day. My normal dose wears off and I get the fibro attacks in between the doses. My arms will start burning and I start to ache all over. When I take the other two 75mg capsules with my normal dose it lasts until my evening dose. I wonder if this is turning into a drug problem?

I don’t feel like it is but I have seen a lot of shit through life and on television about addictions. Am I on that road right now?? I have thought about asking my doctor to up my dose but I am afraid she will think I am some drug seeker. Sometimes they treat me that way even though I have tumor, and fibromyalgia to deal with.

What do any of you suggest in this situation?

Until next time…