Things I have to let out…the loneliness is killing me

I get so lonely. I am lonely now. The loneliness is heavy on my heart. It makes me miss home even though home isn’t home since dad died. I fantasize about what home would be like if I rushed back there but when reality returns I see that it isn’t what I see in my fantasy. Home hasn’t been home for twelve years. My family has been broken since March 7, 1996 and there is no fixing it. Mom isn’t really mom even though I fantasize about that too.

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Something is wrong, but nurse wouldn’t say what!

I called Friday to see if any results were in from the scans. I couldn’t wait any longer. The results were in so I got to speak to a nurse. She told me that the ultrasound came back normal meaning that my liver size, gallbladder size, and kidney size were good. There were no stones [...]

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Two Tests Complete

I went and had two tests completed. The first was the ultrasound of my liver, gallbladder, and kidney. The second was the hidascan that took an hour and a half. That test was to test the function of my gallbladder. The only thing I know coming out of the two tests is I don’t have [...]

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A Stained Glass Masquerade

The Stained Glass Masquerade
Would it set me free
If I dare to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be
Would your arms be open?
Or would you walk away?
Would the love of Jesus be enough to make you stay?
Are we happy plastic people?
Under shiny plastic steeples?
With walls around our [...]

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Here I Go Again

AMEN! Here I Go Again….

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