You’ve Lost Me

 

I’m hurting inside

From all the things you’ve said

It is all stuck in my head

And now my heart has grown cold

These battles have gotten old

I would walk away

If I had the knew how to

The whirling and the swirling

All this back and forth

You drain away my energy

Polluting my desire of life

It makes me dizzy

It deadens my soul

You are going to have to let me go

I am no longer here

I’ve been gone for so long

In all your control

You have failed to see

I’m a distant memory

You’ve lost me

You Live in my Lie

 

With him

Thinking of you

He’s talking

I don’t hear a word

A song plays in tune

It is the only sound

You are all around

You’re in the song

In my mind

In my truth

And in my lie

You fill the empty space

Between our worlds

You occupy my rhyme

Wishing I had more time

Wish I had more to steal

So much in this empty space

I’m starting to feel

You are all around

You are in the song

You are in my mind

You are in my truth

And you live in my lie…

Crazy

 

I know it seems crazy

It might be overboard

The way I am drawn to you

The spark that excites my heart

Yearning for a brand new start

I know it looks crazy

Streaming through the phone

Just to get a piece of whom you are

Going over the mystery on the page

Wondering what it is that makes you tick

Or what sends you into a rage

What rambles through your mind on a lonely night?

I know it might be crazy

The way I’m drawn into you

I follow my heart

That is all I can do…

You seem to be music for my soul

It is all I want to know

How far can this go?

I know it’s crazy…

From Inside Out

 

I want to get to know you

From the inside out

I want to walk around your head

Exhaust all output

I want to feel your breath on my neck

Whisper in my ear…

I want to hear your heartbeat dear

I want to get to know you

From the inside out

Come meet me in my imagination

Lustful determination

I can’t help but want to get to know you

From the inside out

I want to know your thoughts

The wars you have fought

The tears you have cried

All the goodbyes

I want to wrap you up, all around me

And never let you go

I want to know you…

From the inside out

I want the memories linked to song

I want to know we belong

Shortly I will be along

Because I want to know you

From the inside out

There is something out here growing

In all this empty space

I need to get to know you

From inside out

Tell me you feel it

Tell me this isn’t a lie

Tell me you want to know me

From the inside out

We could make music together

In our heart of hearts

Set our souls on fire

Unlimited desire

Let me get to know you

From the inside out

My Love is Forbidden

 

My love is forbidden

You are like a breath of fresh air

That will poison me one day soon

You have stimulated something inside

I must hide

I have responsibility

Constant ability

To fuck things up

So I have to tuck you away

Far, far away

I CAN’T SWAY

Two reasons I stay

You are a forbidden fruit on the tree

That is a temptation for me

So stay away

Far, far away

Because in the end

You could convince me to walk away

Crashing Me

My nightmare is my own

There isn’t a place you belong

It is in my mind

And it never ends

It numbs my core

But not before

Not before I’m crashing

Crashing into the wall

Paying myself back

Paying me back for it all

All the fucked up things I’ve done

All the hurtful things I’ve said

All the weight from everyone I’ve carried

Some things don’t belong

Something is wrong

The way you speak to me

The way it repeats

Yeah it repeats

I’ll carry that like a disease that has no cure

It will linger on forever

Until I’m crashing

Crashing into a wall

Paying myself back for it all

Then words will fall

“I’m all fucked up inside

And you don’t understand

You want control and you want to be the man

But you don’t live inside my head

You don’t feel the urge to want to be dead

Or the urge to walk out on everything

Because I feel caged even with you not around

But you make it feel like suffocation

Your presence suffocates me

Because I will NEVER be what you want me to be

I have no energy to explain to you

I use it up to fight my mind

The war raging inside

That you don’t seem to understand

Because maybe..just maybe…

You are the man

You’re all fucked up inside

Living life based on a safe mind

You have no flooding emotions

That drowns you out

You’re lucky to have a quiet mind

You have no fight inside..

No battlefield of planted landmines

You can feel things you’re supposed to feel

You can keep what’s real

And I can’t understand that

Because I’m not the man

I’m a shell of who I use to be

Guess you shouldn’t have married me…

Because I have to be free

I have to feel free

You just can’t see

I’m crashing me…”

Deafening Mind

So many things twirling around

Rushing by

Not taking the time

Anxiously reeling inside my mind

Rolling me over

Tucking me in at night

Leaving me without any light

I’m up then suddenly I’m down

A fake smile to cover up

Cover up this pain I constantly feel

Agony, angst, sadness forever here

Forever, it is here with me…

I’m freezing slowly

Numbing at the core

Afraid to love freely

Afraid to feel really

If I were to speak what was inside

The world would quake…

They’d run and hide

As the wrath I’d release

Release, from inside me

A raging sea

I just want to be alone

No feelings to worry about hurting

Or time I would have to share

No more pretending I actually care

Because inside I’m numb

And you don’t understand that my dear…